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Saturday, October 29, 2011
23:01
I feel enraged, angry really.
These repressed feelings, they come back every few months. I was there. I was alive. I could of prevented it. It was me. It is me all along. I don't need anything. Shh.. Shh... It'll all be over soon.
Jeffffff
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Wednesday, October 19, 2011
15:58
It was a joke. I never told her to respond like that. It's my friend's girlfriend for heaven's sake. If it made you uncomfortable, i'm sorry. I didn't know she'd post something like that. I'm just going to stop talking to every girl I know. All those things that happened before, you always bring it up on me EVERY TIME like its completely my fault. Why is it like that? Every time, I just swallow my pride and take it in. Maybe i'm not as "smart" enough as you to detect when something is happening because frankly, I don't exactly even have that many friends let alone trying to figure out if a girl likes me. I guess you can say you have more experience than me. You always say its the past when I talk to you about it but you ALWAYS just bring it up again. If you said it was okay, why do you keep bringing it up? And this time, its just a wall post. I don't even know her. I met her once. but again, like always, i'll cheer you up again. Because it's 100% my fault.
I have never, WILL NEVER even CONSIDER any other girl than you when i'm dating you. Not even a thought. You've been the one for me all along and I KNOW that. You've never left my mind the second I fell in love with you. If you are going to let things like this come between us and not believe what I say, i'm insulted, but go ahead. There's nothing I can say but I'm faithful. Take what you will from this, I love you regardless how you think of me, and you're stuck with me if you like it or not.
That's it. Do whatever you want with me. What's sad is that... because it bothered you, and since you're sad, i'm sad. I need something to ease me.
Jeffffff
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Sunday, October 9, 2011
10:25
I'm debating whether or not to continue blogging. My life isn't interesting. Although my life isn't purposeless, I really don't have much to show for my life nor do I think I have accomplished much. I've been having strange thoughts lately. I think it's about time.
To anyone who ever finds this blog, I wish that you all will find someone that cares about you as much as I care for my girlfriend, and to never let go when you find them.
And to my girlfriend who will inevitably read this, my one wish for you, is just to be your own person. Don't let me, or anyone, not even someone really close to you, to change you. No matter how many people think its right or the amount of people that do it, develop your own views and morals towards it. Being independent is a trait that all boyfriends want their loved ones to have. It shows they can't be easily won over by another boy, and the girl is smart about herself, won't be persuaded easily and do things beneficial to herself only. I want you to be strong, to be the leader not the follower, the one who makes a change in someone else's life, and not let others change you for the worse. Live long, and I hope to never bid you farewell. But if that day comes, I wish you the best of luck in life and you find someone that can cherish you 100 times as much as I have. I love you and I miss you a lot.
Jeffffff
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Saturday, October 8, 2011
11:23
I'm so confused, sad and scared I don't even want to blog.
Jeffffff
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Wednesday, October 5, 2011
21:02
I can't act that it doesn't bother me LOL. But I guess this is where I can prove I'm different? LOL.
I can't believe this actually sorta bothers me o_o
THIS ISN'T ME LOLOL.
I'll be okay (:
Time to go practice trumpet.
"When I see your faceeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeee....(8)" Do do dat dat do do da dummm ~~ SCAT
Jeffffff
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20:53
As much as I do actually like buying brands and stuff, I'm scared i'm starting to lose sight of what I actually THINK looks good, and just blindly going after brands. I don't want to be that guy.
I'm always gonna be that cheap ass asian though. Yay.
I can control myself.
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Just wait world, i'm gonna be fucking rich in 5 years, we'll see who's laughing then.
Fuck all you guys who don't give two shits about me. We'll see who gets shat on in the future. I'll be sure to eat alot of fibre and bran to give it some form so it's harder to clean up. Fuck you all. Fuck you world. I'll fucking show everyone.
Jeffffff
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20:53
I'm not rich enough for you.
Jeffffff
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This is my blog. Hf.