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Friday, September 23, 2011
01:25
It's in the past, leave it there Jeff, leave it there.
Jeffffff
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Thursday, September 15, 2011
16:10
Anyone else feel the loneliness in the middle of a crowd?The way everyone feels friendly and is friends with everyone.
Except you.
It feels like you're doing something wrong,
you're acting wrong,
or you're just wrong.
The way everyone seems to laugh harder at jokes everyone else makes,
How they seem to know how to amuse each other.
Except you.
Maybe I should change, You tell yourself.
Maybe I could talk less, or talk more.
Maybe they think I talk funny,
Maybe I shouldn't talk at all.
It's not working, you tell yourself.
The horrid feeling of being ostracized.
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Don't want to end it. Don't want to finish writing it. I'm too tired. LOL. Looks like I don't fit in, once again. great!
Jeffffff
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Monday, September 12, 2011
19:32
It's funny how easily one night of mine could become so busy and stressful! LOL.
Jeffffff
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18:16
i've been happier lately
Fuck yeah. Third day playing the trumpet, and I've already been complimented on my skill level by the teacher. I'm already caught up to my class who took 4 years to get to that level. My class isn't bad though, they're really good. I really like my talent of being able to learn instruments that fast. I'm in no way perfect or like pro but i'm decent, and i'm pretty sure by the end of the semester, i'll start consider buying myself one 8)
In other news, I looked up stuff to do with my university when I was staying up last night. My future looks pretty bright. Money-wise... I should be okay if I get loans and scholarships. I refuse to use my parents' money and I kinda want my sister to have the RESP if possible. She wouldn't have to work as hard and hopefully go to a better school. Fingers crossed for McGill, GO JEN!
Waterloo university has a shit music program. Straight up, they do. One jazz course and they don't even have a B.Mus program, at least none that I'm aware of. Waterloo engineering requires 90+ average to get into the program I want to but i'm really glad they say that extra-curriculars mean ALOT. Because I have a shit shit shit shit shit TON of work related experience, volunteer, clubs, sports. I sound godly. Muwahhaaaha. They said that if they see alot of extracurricular, they will consider a considerable lower average! SCORE!
Laurier has a decent music program and the fact that I can do it AT THE SAME TIME as engineering is amazeballs. It's requirements are not as high as something like UoT or Humber but it's like the cookie cutter program for me! I look forward to auditioning and hopefully studying jazz under some really interesting people! But even if i don't, I'll probably join alot of music stuff and gigs and such. Music is one of the most important things to me. I can never let it go.
An amazing and stressful year is yet to bloom, with my girlfriend on piggyback, and my stacked school schedule, and a new job with an amazing commission, plus an (always) amazing family, it feels great and i'll make the best of this one last year.
Jeffffff
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Sunday, September 11, 2011
18:34
I hope i'm still your reason to wake up in the morning,The 100% of me that will keep you going.
Jeffffff
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18:22
Note to self:
Wherever the trail may lead us - Tim McGrawGirl in 14G - Kristin Chenoweth
ArtsFest, Talent Show respectively
Jeffffff
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18:12
I don't get it, i'm sorry I really don't. But you act this way every time you're mad and I 100% believe that something is wrong today.
But I completely understand your privacy if you would not like to share that with me. It's really okay. Just be better. Back to philosophy.
Jeffffff
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Friday, September 9, 2011
18:23
Music Related Post
So. My first impression of music class this year was much more than just satisfactory. Grade 12 class with all my friends, the teacher liked me, and it was music!
It turns our all the instruments I do play, were taken. There was a pianist already, 4 alto saxes, 2 bassists, 2 guitarists, and 4 percussionists. Great LOL. I guess this was good, because then the teacher said I could start a new instrument. I picked trumpet. I've always liked the trumpet, the second most sexiest instrument in my opinion, with the sexiest being the alto sax. hehe :3
Today was my second day playing and people think i'm so good at it LOL. Well. To be fair, I'm not GOOD good, but I progressed like crazily from day one. Practise does pay off. And I was randomly playing the piano after class and people heard me :$ hehehe... they think i'm tank. ._.
I'm really not LOL.
SO. MY PLANS FOR TALENT SHOW. SO FAR, me and Amanda are gonna do a Broadway piece. :3 She could easily tackle the singing parts and I'm through most of the song already! It's gonna be SICCCCCCCCCK. I hope Lamarche will let us use the music room after choir practices and stuff. Which reminds me, I might join choir, they want my Tenor-ness. :'(
But it's another thing I have to consider because of my time constraints.
Anyways, I talked to my teacher regarding Jazz programs in Ontario and picked up some nice info. I'll probably talk to him a bit more in the coming weeks. He invited me to sing for Jazz band or play horns. They need those players and he thinks i'd be good for it. I told him i'll think about it because..well the meeting is on next Thursday so we'll see how that goes D:
Tally-hooooooooooo
Jeffffff
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Thursday, September 8, 2011
22:29
Impossible to admit and I'll need to be optimistic but it is what it is.
Jeffffff
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Wednesday, September 7, 2011
18:57
I'm back.
Like many others in the world, I went back to school a couple days ago. My final year in high school and it, honestly, was nothing special. I walked into the same old school, went to class, went to lunch and complained about summer ending. Same old routine that happens every year.
But unlike every year, this year was a bit different. It sure felt the same, but I know it wasn’t completely just another year. Then it hit me. This was my LAST year. My GRADUATION year. These people I’ve went to school with for what felt like forever, i’ll probably never hear of their names after this year. We’ll be all over the province, and even the world pursuing our own personal dreams and post secondary plans. For most of my graduating class, this would be goodbye. Although I would try to keep in touch, it won’t be the same.
I’m not one to complain about things in my life, but one thing I have complained about is how I dislike my high school. Maybe it’s the soon to be “graduation goggles” or the blur of hindsight that makes me kind of miss it. Back when I was a grade nine, and I thought that grade 12s were so big. Back when Vice Principals were actually on our side. Back when we thought we’d never go through these four years as fast as we did. I’d have to say, i’ll miss it.
Aside from all this thought and worry self instilled into my head, I managed to get through the first few days fine. I got to school the first day and to my pleasant surprise, had my favorite physics teacher for homeroom. I have to admit, I wasn’t pleased with the scheduling of my classes and the line up for course and scheduling changes were longer than my patience. So I waited.
My second period law class was phenomenal. It was a shame really that law was one of the subjects I decided to drop. I was an amazing crown lawyer last year and I was planning to continue the streak into my last year but I was just too busy. The teacher is really funny but there was a lot of work behind all of the laughs.
My third period, let’s just say, thank god my friend has a big build and let me sit behind him. I fell asleep 3 times in the span of 75 minutes. How is that even possible? The teacher was great, but the first class wasn’t the most exciting thing ever.
Last period! Math, mathmathmathmath. I had the best teacher possible for my advanced functions course and i’m loving it. But too bad I switched out too. For some odd reason, it always seems that the math teachers know i’m good at math… Is it because i’m asian? Or do they have secret dark meetings about how good kids are at stuff? Or maybe he would see something about me? I don’t know. I’m usually one of those kids that keep up the average in the class though. Not to be bragging or anything though.
My schedule completely changed from THAT to something a bit more favorable. I haven’t tried out my new classes yet so i’ll keep you updated on that. For now, good bye!
Jeffffff
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