I get on my bed. And end up worrying about something until the sun comes up. No. Sleep.

I'm always worried about you. I was worried the whole night about what might happen to you in the future. I'm really scared you're gonna somehow turn back into that girl you were before. I'm scared you might be easily influenced to do things. Peer pressured into doing things.

Not intentionally, but Nu-lite popped in my head a lot LOL. I was scared that maybe you'll somehow go to one of their events and then get dragged back into the partying thing. I think i'm scared of you going to parties is partially selfish too. I've gone to many parties myself, but in a way, you partying feels somewhat unfamiliar to me. And generally, the unwritten rule for me is that if i'm unfamiliar with a certain topic, i'll probably be a bit scared about it.

But the big reason is just... i don't want you to be that type of person anymore. I know time and time again you assure me you won't be. And I believe you. But in the future. No one can tell what will happen. But i really hope you keep your promise. For the sake of us, and just for the sake of you. I hope the type of girl I have now, is the real you. Forever. A girl who might be a bit insecure, but still very down to earth and has a goal in life. Plans for the future, knows what is good for her and knows what is bad. I love you. I'm just scared of stupid things. But this is just another blog post, demonstrating how much i'm into you and how much I think about us in the future and it astounds me how I can unconsciously care about you.. like this. Maybe i'm selfish, or maybe i'm just too into you.

Either way, last night was one big worry session and I was sweating and exsausted. I should take a nice shower and eat lunch. And my lower lip hurts LOL. I cut it. -.- Anyways, library today. Lets see if i can get all this done!

10 History Essays
6 Harmony Assignments.

LOL. SUMMER MY ASS. LMFAO.