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Thursday, July 28, 2011
11:54
Fucking hell. It's really awesome. Do you ever think about how I feel? Do you ever know what its like when you always have to tell the bad news. Always be the fucking one to let people down. Every single time i'm scared to let you down and hope that you'd understand but each and every time you would somehow not understand. I'm not saying i'm right. You're not the only one that spends time to get ready. You're not the only one that's let down. Now my parents are fucking mad too. I'm fucking angry as well. Its funny because my parents make up excuses so I can't go out. I swear, they probably don't even like me always going out with you. But its funny. I try to fucking hard anyways, begging them, convincing them. And when our fucking plans get shot down, all I see are a bunch of guilt tripping angry blog posts. I understand how you feel. How you've always been let down and such. But understand there isn't one victim here. They're two. Have you ever thought about me?
Yeah, Its only a blogpost. But I'm pretty sure you'd know i'd read them. And half of your followers know us. Yay. I'm the bad fucking boyfriend that always cancels our plans again.
Its even kinda funny. The first thing I knew that was gonna happen after I told you I couldn't go was that both your blogs would have new posts. But I get it. In the end. Its my fault. Its always my fault. So once again, I'll say sorry, my feelings will be contained, and I'll do a million things just to make it up to you.
I'm sick of it. Everyone has to go against everything I do. My life is a fucking paradox.
Jeffffff
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